Breakfast by the River - Sungai Sitiawan

April 19, 2018

One of the way to treat myself on my off day is to have good, proper food. :)

Since this town is still new to me, there are so many things to explore. I have not much idea on yummy food around, not much experiences on best restaurants that I should try. So, I asked people around (my colleagues of course) and Google!

So, it leads me to this place.

Roti Canai Pak Tam Kg Sitiawan

If you are looking for good roti canai with good view to relax your mind, this is the place. I am not sure about other menus, but the nasi lemak served there was also delicious. Not to forget, you can always buy kuih muih from few stalls around - like lempeng pisang, otak-otak, etc. Yummy too!

My friend and I went there on a weekday morning and I believe this place is quite popular as there are so many people! I bet on weekends will be even crowded over here.

Check the directions and more details on Google Maps :)

M, Perak, Malaysia

Wisdom to Differentiate

April 18, 2018

Working life is so far bearable. I have no thought of giving up or resigning and hopefully none of them till the end. 

There are ups and downs every single day. You can be congratulated and scolded by the same person in just few minutes apart. But, slowly I developed a barrier to my heart to accept the good in any bad things. 

I feel very happy when the MOs have the same diagnosis and plans as mine. Here, every single thing need to be discussed with the MOs in which in one way, is very good as juniors can avoid making mistakes or improper plans can be prevented to be done to the patients. On the other hand, sometimes I feel bad to inform the MO for simple stuffs like, if I can give even Tab. Paracetamol (panadol) to the patients if their temperature rises, or syrup MMT if they complained epigastric pain. 

But, in real life, MOs surely have FAR MORE EXPERIENCE than the juniors. They can give other plans that juniors can't relate enough, yet.

One thing junior doctors need to do well - is to know the patients well like any important antenatal problems, any previous medical illness, any allergies and current conditions of patients. With this, junior doctors are basically helping A LOT with the MOs plans.   

Few things I learned - I need to:
  • Be someone who can contribute to the patient's good progress even though I am not the one who decide the right plans for them.
  • Be brave enough to double confirm the plans especially if the MOs give out the plans too fast and I can't keep up with them.
  • Be calm but fast.
  • Be careful in everything without affecting the speed of the work.

Change the things that can be changed, accept those that cannot, and have the wisdom to know the difference.

Another thing I can do is, to change myself and my approach to every situations :)

M, Perak, Malaysia

A Morning Stroll at the Mangrove Park

April 17, 2018

Haha, I can't tell how much I miss blogging and blogwalking. 

Anyway, it is another off day today. Going to share something I did on one of my previous off days - which was hmmm, more than 10 days ago? There are postcalls that I am still strong enough to still drive home - for 2 hours ride one way. But, there are some days I totally dozed off upon arriving home, took my bath and performed my prayer. The moment when I thought I would take only 30 minutes to an hour to rest before driving... would turn out to be 4-5 hours sleep. Heee.

And the day I went to this Taman Paya Bakau was that kind of day.

I decided to stay instead. 

That morning, I went breakfast with a good friend - we used to know each other during high school and our parents are friends to each other as well. And turn out, we are colleagues in the same hospital right now. I have no idea to know someone here, but the moment I know she is in the same place as mine, I feel happier :)

After breakfast, I proceeded with this mangrove forest plan, while she had something else to do.

So, yeah, I went there alone. There were other visitors as well, but they came in a group.

Mangrove trees

To be honest, the place is FULL of monkeys! I warned you guys, there are a lotttttt of them. Since I went there alone, I thought I could survived till the end until I was nearly ambushed by one of them.

Gosh, I wonder how I survived my high school life with monkeys.

See. They were waiting for me. 
But, I finally succeeded till the end! :D

Tadaaaa, the view was so amazinggggg!

The river. 

It is interesting to see the mangrove trees and imagining how they help with the ecosystem to prevent flood. Something I used to see from books.

Well, I think my parents had took me and my brothers to this kind of place when we were still small kids.

Good view, good air.
Thanks to this family of three for allowing me to join them. :D

Life survival skills of mine, please stay with me and never fade away :) After nearly being ambushed by the monkey, I slowly retreated until I saw this family started walking approaching me. Gently, I asked permission to join them walking together.

"Boleh je dik, takde masalah :)"

Kak Farah and family.

The mangrove roots searching to water source, maybe?

All in all, this place is very nice to hang out with friends and family in the evening of during weekend. Just, because of the monkeys, please be careful with the bags, phones and please please don't bring any food with you. I can say, the safety is about 6/10. But, the pathway is well taken care of. Very clean too! :)

There are jambatan gantung as well, just under renovation right now. 

Here, I attach a map to this place. :)

Till next post.

M, Perak, Malaysia

Segmen: Making A Blog List by Blog Siqahiqa

April 8, 2018

Having an off day and I decided to stay here. A bit tired to drive home, insyAllah next off day I'll be back to my hometown. 

So, let's spend few minutes for the blog :D

Anyway, Siqahhhh, here I am, joining your segment :D

Click the banner for further details okay?

Everyone who join this will be included in her blog list, anyway. Let's join this one!

M, Perak, Malaysia

Detour by Raudhatul Hifza | Book Review

March 27, 2018

Despite the busy working days, I decided to have a goal of reading at least one book per month. It was a bit hard to keep in track as I don't have the luxury to read the book in the hospital and upon reaching home, I am already tired to even hold a book. 

Memang bila pegang buku nak baca, the next moment I wake up... it is already 5am plus and I need to get ready for another working day. 

So, after analyzing the trend, I got the pattern; to read few pages for 5-10 minutes in the morning while having my breakfast before leaving the house for work. 

And finally I finished reading a book! :D

Detour by Raudhatul Hifza | Book Review

Title: Detour
Author: Raudhatul Hifza
Pages: 268
Publisher: Iman Publication
Publication Date: Jan 2018

There is no specific synopsis of this book unless you haven't read Hiatus. Oh, this book is kind of a sequel of Hiatus, just it is not written by Budak Tomato (I think?) and to be honest I imagine Muharikah is the one who wrote this piece. WAllahualam.

Detour by Raudhatul Hifza | Book Review

In this book, you can get a better understanding of Hiatus, from Raudhah's point of views.

A good, simple book to be honest, with not much cliffhanging parts but I am a bit disappointed with another open-ending book. Tapi, dah tu penulis nak buat, I can do nothing but to read, observe and apply the lessons I've learned from it.


1. Be the person who can bring someone closer to Allah (together with us).
Detour by Raudhatul Hifza | Book Review

I believe I can relate well to the verse as Raudhah and I share the same career. Alhamdulillah I haven't deal with dying patients yet in this department, hopefully not but I believe it is something unavoidable in the hospital. Patients can die every day. 

In O&G, it is more towards happiness of welcoming a newborn into this world. But, there are tears as well. Some women who really want a baby but unable to have one. Some women who got pregnant and really treasure their pregnancies suddenly came to the hospital because of per vaginal bleeding and upon examinations, they are diagnosed to have miscarriages T_T 

'Bukan rezeki saya, kan doktor?' while shedding her tears.

Only Allah knows how sad I am to deal with this. But, I need to be professional as well even though quite a few times, I got carried away with this empathy emotion. What I can do is to calm them (in a rush, I need to help with other patients too) and reassured that 'Allah nak bagi yang lebih baik untuk akak. Akak pun muda lagi, insyAllah nanti akak cuba lagi ya.'

2. Rejection is another part of learning.
Detour by Raudhatul Hifza | Book Review

Well, rejection is my daily meal in the hospital. Well, it is for my own good anyway. Rejections really help me to improve on how to present cases, how to decide on the plans and the most importantly, why I need to perform such examinations and how to persuade patients.

Like, in O&G, not all cases we need to do vaginal examination (known as check jalan). In fact, there is another way to check the vagina - per speculum (orang panggil masuk mulut itik kat bawah) which is usually done if pregnant women complained of leaking liquor (rasa macam ada air mengalir lah doktor)

Same goes to abdominal ultrasound. In some cases, we need to do trans-vaginal ultrasound (masuk probe ultrasound melalui vagina untuk nampak organ peranakan lebih jelas) instead of trans-abdominally. But, we still need to respect the patients if they refuse any. 

  • 'Dah dia taknak, kita tak boleh paksa, Hanis. Yang penting, kita dah bagitahu baik buruk sesuatu prosedur tu dan make sure tulis dalam fail dia yang dia refuse.'

3. This too shall pass.
Detour by Raudhatul Hifza | Book Review

Every time I feel down with my own achievement, I always pat myself, "You have done the best for now, there are always rooms for improvement. And this too shall pass." 

I hope my ability to work will be more efficient and fast with time. Ameen.  

4. Dealing with depressed person.
Detour by Raudhatul Hifza | Book Review

I love how the author described this part well.

It is not that easy to deal with these people in real life. Theory and words are totally different than in reality. People are too different from each other. But, I think that I can use this as a guideline.


All in all, this book is a bit monotonous but I believe that if we read this book for the sake of just to finish it, we will reach to higher disappointment. Anyway, if you have read Hiatus, I would highly recommend this one to continue reading after Hiatus :)

My rating: ★★★☆☆

M, Perak, Malaysia

Beautiful Quotes from Lee Chong Wei Movie

March 26, 2018

I am running out of time for this post, but I really want to write down the lessons I learned from this movie. Honestly, as a badminton fan, this movie has a soft spot in my heart. Especially to appreciate that a sport legend is not a legend at the first place, but he wins the world with efforts, passion, determination, supports etc.

Oh yea, this is the very first movie I watched alone in cinema.
So far that I can recall, I guess?

And I learned that I can get a ticket for only RM10 in TGV cinemas if I pay with Maybank card (for showing times before 6pm). 

Lee Chong Wei Movie

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Honestly I don't expect much from it as I haven't watch any new movies' trailers. And I can't imagine the movie is going to be more to formal documentary or else. But, I finally decided to buy the tickets just because it is about badminton and Lee Chong Wei.

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"Tiada impian yang tak dapat dicapai kecuali kalau kita berputus asa dari awal."

Again, it is about effort to achieve something. No matter what, we need to put our efforts while praying hard to get something. 

Kita mungkin belum dapat nikmati terbang ke negara lain kalau the Wright brothers berputus asa nak buat kapal terbang. 
Kita mungkin belum dapat nikmati perkembangan telefon canggih kalau Alexander Graham Bell berputus asa nak buat telefon.

"Hidup ni ada banyak nasihat dari pelbagai orang. Tugas kita ialah cantumkan cebisan-cebisan nasihat untuk jadi sesuatu yang berguna."

Maybe this is not the exact quote from the movie, but I believe it is something like this :)

Well, when we are sorting out the puzzle, we need to organize every parts of it and sort them together to get a full picture of it. Same as the life. 

"Setiap kali hilang keyakinan, ingatlah masih ada orang percaya dengan kemampuan kita."

Haha... I can relate my life to this. In my case, the person will be my family. No matter how hard my day is, every time I look at their faces (virtually for now), my energy get boosted :) May Allah bless them <3

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Nah, a beautiful song! :D

Till then,

M, Perak, Malaysia

Sharing about Hypertension in Pregnancy

March 25, 2018

Normal people usually have normal blood pressure (BP). But, actually most people have hypertension nowadays. T_T However, pregnancy can also induce hypertension - due to hormones, the placenta (uri) and the struggle of pregnancy itself. Hypertension in pregnancy is not something to take for granted, in fact it is in the top 5 disorders in pregnancy that can harm mothers (lead to death).

For people who have family's background for hypertension, we need to be extra careful on our lifestyle and diet.

1. Hypertension - different terms in pregnancy.
There are quite a number terms and definitions I need to understand and remember in order to get the proper diagnosis and plans for specific patients.

2. Why hypertension can be harmful in pregnancy?
Well, hypertension is dangerous no matter someone is pregnant or not. In this post, I would love to share why and how hypertension in pregnancy is not an easy matter.

Hypertension in general can reduce blood flow to many organs like:

  • brain (can lead to coma etc),
  • heart (heart failure / attack etc), 
  • kidney (renal failure etc),
  • eyes (blurring of vision etc),
  • etc

So, can we imagine what can happen to the baby if the mother herself is not in good condition?
In O&G, mothers always come first to be rescued, only then the baby. 

Effects - premature birth, stillbirth, complications to babies afterwards (learning disability, seizure etc)

3. How will be the routine for pregnant women with hypertension?

I am still learning and observing this situation.

But, from my knowledge, once a pregnant woman is diagnosed with hypertension or have BP ≥ 140/90 in any check-ups in Klinik Kesihatan and written in their pink books, she need to get her BP measured every other day (EOD). This means, day 1 - day 3 - day 5 and continuously until her next check up or even until delivery of baby. Even after labor, her BP need to be monitored to make sure it is in a safe range.

4. What are the signs & symptoms of impending eclampsia?
Patients usually complain of headache, dizziness (rasa pinar-pinar), blurring of vision, epigastric pain (pedih ulu hati), nausea (mual), vomiting, edema (kaki bengkak). These are the things need to be watched out every time we meet patients with hypertension.

Believe me, in unfortunate events, some patients can skip all these and go direct to seizure T_____T

5. Who is at risk of pre-eclampsia / eclampsia?

Pregnant women who are / have:

  • Previous history of pre-eclampsia 
  • Other diseases - kidney, diabetes etc
  • Multiple pregnancy - twins / triplets etc
  • Obesity
  • Primigravida (first pregnancy)
  • Family history of pre-eclampsia

6. How a hypertensive pregnant woman can be admitted to the hospital?
As someone who have been clerking patients coming to EPAU (Early Pregnancy Assessment Unit) or in some place this unit is called PAC (Pregnancy Assessment Center), most pregnant women who came for high BP is diagnosed with 'TRO IE'.

These five alphabets are scary to me. It actually means - To Rule Out Impending Eclampsia
  • They have high BP
  • 80-90% of them have proteinuria (protein in urine).
  • Some of them have signs and symptoms of Impending Eclampsia.
  • Some even ended up with seizure.
  • Most of them need to have induction of labor (IOL) / emergency C-sec (EMLSCS) as they can't exceed 38weeks! to deliver the baby - delivery is the best way to avoid the worst scenario.

The havoc to manage a fitting pregnant woman is not a joke. At least few people need to take part in this especially to:
  • Prepare Magnesium Sulphate bolus and infusion (to fight the seizure), 
  • To check all vital signs (BP. pulse rate, respiratory rate, temperature)
  • To recheck Pre-Eclampsia profile (full blood count, liver function test, renal profile, urine full examination and microscopy examination, coagulation profile)

7. How to avoid these?
Hmm.. first, let's pray hard to all pregnant women to have a smooth and uneventful pregnancy. Live a good and healthy lifestyle, control our diet, don't ever skip any antenatal check-ups.

And if you are diagnosed with hypertension in pregnancy, please and please make sure you follow what your doctors have told you. If you need to take medications, please don't skip. If you need to get your BP measured every other day, please do so even though it can be a hassle.


"Seizure in pregnancy is eclampsia until proven otherwise."

M, Perak, Malaysia

Survived My First Oncall

March 24, 2018

While I am appreciating my offday today, I would love to prepare few scheduled posts for this favorite site of mine. Well, I guess most bloggers are their own blogs' die hard fans, right? I am not an exception :D

Off-tag last Sunday, in which I can join the normal schedule as other housemen. Normal schedule means I have different working hours each day, depends on how my schedule is prepared by the houseman-in-charge. 

Different departments have different working hours, same goes to different hospitals as well. Everything depends on the need of that certain department in that certain hospital itself. As for me, it goes like this. Roughly 60-90hours per week. 

  • A - normal - 0700-1700 (10hours)
  • B - stayback - 0700-2200 (15hours)
  • C - oncall - 0700-1700 (10hours)
  • D - postcall - 2200-1300 (15hours)

The ideal one is maybe? something like this:
  • Monday - A 
  • Tuesday - B 
  • Wednesday - C 
  • Thursday - D 
  • Friday - OFF
  • Saturday - A
  • Sunday - B

Oncall will be followed by postcall. And it is NOT a must to have an off day after postcall. Depends. And we are allowed to have cuti rehat (CR) 8 days in 4 months. Seniors cakap kena pandai-pandai plan kalau nak holidays panjang. Usually, they will do like this "oncall - postcall - off - CR - CR - CR", so you can enjoy at least 4 days and a half to rest. 

Mata memang nampak postcall... so cover sikit.

How was my first oncall?

Alhamdulillah it was not that eventful, just I didn't managed to have much sleep due to my lack of experiences to do the tasks faster. The challenge for oncall is that, only one houseman need to be in charge of the ward for that night - from 10pm to 7am (until other housemen come to work the next morning). 

There were few patients I need to review after Caesarean sections and for these patients, we need to review them at least:
  1. After they had been transferred out of the operating theaters to the post-natal wards, 
  2. 6 hours after operation, 
  3. Any active complaints like shortness of breath or as simple as cough. Noted that some patients may have underlying diseases especially hypertension (no matter pre-existing hypertension means before pregnancy, or pregnancy-induced hypertension) as these patients need to be watched out of impending eclampsia's signs and symptoms. We are scared if they get seizure / fitting episode!

Plus any other active complaints from another patients or any new cases in the ward. 

No matter what complaints the patients have, we need to attend them stat. 

STAT - short form for Latin word's statim which means immediately.

I plan to share few main topics in Obstetrics and Gynecology here in this blog, feel free to read. InsyAllah, I will try my best to explain based from what I've learned theoretically and real experiences I've encountered in the hospital. :) 

Till next post.

M, Perak, Malaysia

Wonderful March Giveaway by Raydah Alhabsyi

March 23, 2018

Because I have an off day now :D
Hey Ray, I am joining your giveaway! 

Click the banner to join :)

Life has been busy for me since I started working. Most of things are still bearable despite I am honestly still struggling to adapt. InsyAllah, it is going to be much better with time :)

Thanks Ray for these lovely words on your post. I found it beautiful for myself.

Why Wonderful March?  It's simple, I am just hoping that this month of March will be a good month for me and all of us. I hope that things will get better for anyone who's having a hard time no matter where you are. Whenever you're having a really hard time or having problems of your own, remember that things happen for a reason and that there are more people out there who are less fortunate wishing they could be at your place. Be grateful and be thankful for what you have today. Try and help those who are around you, In shaa Allah, you'll feel a lot better. Take your time and say Alhamdulillah for the day you had today.

Thanks for this giveaway as well. All the best to myself and you, hehe.

M, Perak, Malaysia

5 Days of Tagging

March 10, 2018

Well... I am still contemplating to share my housemanship life here. It can be misinterpreted and misunderstood, as people are reading from just one side of view. But, insyAllah I will try to reflect my days and improve every single thing that I can. Still trying to.

Let me share about how a doctor can become a practicing doctor.

A doctor is not yet a doctor in Malaysia, until s/he is certified by Malaysia Medical Council (MMC) with his/her registration number. How to be one? A graduate with a medical degree need to do housemanship as 'doktor pelatih' for 2 years with 6 departments. It means, s/he need to work for 4 months at least for 1 department before proceeding to the next one, only after s/he pass ALL requirements and assessments through out every departments. 

So, how is my life right now?

5 days of tagging out of 2 weeks. Applied to all hospitals around Malaysia, tagging days start at 6-7am and end at 10pm plus. 15 hours of working every day for 6 days per week. If someone got lucky, the department will allow taggers to get an off day in a week Otherwise, some may require taggers to work every day for 2 weeks. 


So, I currently survived 5 days of tagging and have an off day today. Still thinking either to sleep or to go out or to do intense revisions. Deep down, I think I need to do all of them today. Haha.

Housemanship journey will not be like this straight path but things will work out, insyAllah :)

What I have learned so far?

1. Doctors and responsibilities.
  • Doctors are still students but not as a title of students. There are LOTS of thing to learn, adapt, manage every single day, while trying not to make the same mistakes twice.
  • Doctors are responsible for the patients. We need to attend patients even with the slight symptom like headache due to stress as we are doctors and simple symptoms do not all the time mean nothing wrong is going on.
  • Always seek help from seniors, superiors, hospital staffs every time we are not sure as we are dealing with people's life.

2. Masuk telinga kanan, keluar telinga kiri. Yang baik kita simpan dalam hati dan ingatan.
  • Hospital environment is something new as a working place to me. Even though I managed to spend a month in hospital in Malaysia, the environment is totally different. Maybe because I were still a student back then and responsibilities of students and doctors are hugely different. 
  • Working is not all the time about happiness and calmness. We can get scolded for important stuffs we miss while clerking the patients. We can also get scolded for mistakes we made while trying to find out what are the things going on with the patients. And.... we can also get scolded for nothing. 

3. Approach to patients.
  • These are few things I can recall right now that I wish I will always try my best to do it:
    • Always greet the patient with a smile and introducing myself, no matter how hard my day is.
    • Always reconfirm the name of patients so that I do not attend the wrong patient with the wrong diagnosis and plan.
    • Always be careful with needles and procedures to prevent harm to patients and even myself.
    • Always double confirm with the patients about the symptoms they have as some will suddenly change their sickness when the superiors ask.

4. Advice to myself.
  • Adapt faster and be familiarize with EVERY SINGLE SYMPTOMS WITH THEIR DIAGNOSIS AND PLANS.
  • Write faster with readable handwriting.
  • Take blood and insert branulas with more confidence. Always transfer the blood into the respective tubes and label them as soon as I took the blood.
  • Be careful with names and R/N number of patients as patients may change their bed or I can't remember their faces.
  • Smile, smile, smile.
  • Be good to others no matter how bad they treat me.
  • Think positive every time I got scolded - that scolds are for my own good and those are mistakes that I surely need to improve.
  • Improve and don't keep harsh words I received in my heart. They surely have their bad days too.
  • Admit the mistakes I made and always ask for help if I get lost somewhere.
  • Always find time for prayers, meals and to contact my family.

All in all, tagging days are tiring but insyAllah these days are the one that will help me to be a better and a safe doctor to the community. InsyAllah, ameen ameen.

Doakan yang baik untuk saya ya.
I'll improve myself!

M, Perak, Malaysia

Beginning of Housemanship - A New Life Phase

March 3, 2018

Post-orientation week.
2 days before tagging period for first posting.

A place I found serenity. :D

Orientation week was more towards patient safety or something with awareness course for junior HO (houseman) during working. Trust me when I said all medical health people really try hard to take care of our safety. The week ended with a test to see our understanding about it.

So, if you guys want to know, patient safety can be defined as absence of preventable harm to a patient during process of health care (WHO). Understandable, right?

A lot of topics were covered in this course - from the right way to prescribe medications (ubat-ubat kita dapat tu), the right way to have safe surgery, the right way to prevent antimicrobial resistance (this is a big issue in the health world today), the right way for safe blood transfusion (one of the most IMPORTANT things to take note as the mistakes here can lead to death) etc.

Actually, I think any kind of mistakes can harm the patients.

But, doctors are human beings as well. Humans can never run away from making mistakes. But still, the main point here, have we done the best to prevent the mistakes from happening? 

Teluk Batik

Alhamdulillah, still surviving. :) 
Next week will be the beginning of real battle :) 
May Allah ease, may Allah help.

And welcome to another phase of life, Nina :)
New responsibilities.
New knowledge and skills.
New environment.
New friends and colleagues.
New room.
New neighborhood.

It will be challenging. Ultimate one. 
But... keep holding on and keep your faith, Nina.
InsyAllah you will get through it.
Don't keep emotions to yourselves. Let it go, let it out.
Learn fast, every single moment.
Respect others.
Offer yourself.
Help yourself. Help people.
Praise and compliment yourself, praise others.
Eat well.
Pray consistently.
Never lose hope. 
Remember all beautiful people and memories.

Watching sunset on my 3rd day of orientation week.

It is going to be hard but it is not impossible.
You can do it, Nina!

p/s - O&G for 4 months, bismillahirrahmanirrahim.

SS, Perak, Malaysia

A Life Lesson I Learned From Black Knight (Korean Drama)

February 13, 2018

This drama was still ongoing at the time I started writing this. But it is over now, with a sad ending. Ops, spoiler alert! 

To those who have no ideas about this drama, let me share a bit of its synopsis. The full title is Black Knight: The Man Who Guards Me. I don't remember if the story started with life in Joseon years or current one. But it is about tangled relationships between few people - consist of long lost childhood plus long term grudges and curse. A very interesting drama as it has different timelines that are hundreds of years apart. 

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Soo Ho, is a successful businessman who has lost his parents. He has arguable childhood when his father died in a fire and he was 'taken care' by Hae Ra's father. Soo Ho then left Korea to live abroad while Hae Ra lives a miserable life since her parents died. On a stressful day, Hae Ra dreams of a coat her parents ordered when she was a child and had not pick it up. Only then, Hae Ra meets Sharon / Seo Rin. 

So what are actually relationships between all of these 3 people?
Who is holding grudges against who?

Watch it yourself. Hahaha. Tak larat nak taip panjang-panjang.
But if you can't tolerate sad ending, don't do it. To be honest, I would prefer another style of sad ending T_T

A thing that keep me watching... is the views of Slovenia.

I am sure there are lot of other life lessons we can learn from the drama. But this is the main point I realised throughout the story. 


There is a character named Park Chulmin. He is actually a father of Haera's friend, Gon. In this drama, if you watch it, Chulmin's greediness started when he fell in love with Cheo Seorin, a lady who has lived for 250 years and she always mentioned to Chulmin to be rich in any means. He is doing everything he can to raise his wealth even by threatening people. 

I once watched a video about things that can threaten our iiman. When the presenter asked the audience about what are those dangerous things to our iiman, many people will answer majority stuffs that are certainly haram, prohibited or forbidden in Islam like drinking alcohol, adultery, murder etc.

There is a hadith about the greatest threat (At-Tirmidhi).

Narrated K’ab bin Malik: Allah’s Messenger said, “Two hungry wolves sent in the midst of a flock of sheep are not more destructive to them than a man’s greed for wealth and fame is to his religion.” (At-Tirmidhi)

Greed for wealth and fame. 

Wealth is important though, even some of Prophet's companions were wealthy and they used their wealth for Islam.

But the greed beyond what is needed and involve unnecessary values are not good. Greedy people can do many things to get what they want - no matter how illegal they are. 


This can be reflected to our life.
Bribe is almost everywhere, in almost every organisation. 

May Allah guide us away from this. 

SS, Perak, Malaysia

Three Different Perspectives

February 11, 2018

Just a random thought after watching a Korean show entitled Leaving The Nest 2. The show is about teenagers who traveled to Greece without help from parents and older people. At the same time, the show is shown to their parents to see how their children behave and act outside their controls. 

A thing that makes me think is.... towards the end of the show - episode 9 if I am not mistaken, there is a part when a father mentioned in the show how he changed after his son's travelling. 

Sekadar hiasan :)

In terms of what?
He said, cutting on drinking and smoking.

He received gifts from his son - ashtrays and something related to drinking.

From his son point of view... I do understand that he wanted to give something that the father would love to use, or just something related to him.

But, from the father's perspective, he realised that those habits were too much exposed to his son. Like, he felt like maybe he smoked or drank a lot in front of him that make the son admitted that those habits belong to the father.

And for me personally, wherever I went travelling, I found that ashtrays are beautiful especially to give away as presents. Just, I don't feel good to buy and give them to smokers. It feels like I am encouraging them to continue smoking by providing the ashtrays. To be honest, I don't like the 'smoking' part itself and I am allergic to cigarettes' smoke T_T. 

One situation.
Three different perspectives. At least.
And it depends on how someone thinks :)


Well, nothing much in this post. Just to share my thoughts on this so that, in the future if I read this again, I can remind myself there are at least two views on something. It can be good, it can be bad as well. Depends on how we see it :)

Kita melihat dengan kaca mata apa?

SS, Perak, Malaysia

Breathe by Beni Rusani | Book Review

January 30, 2018

While in preparation with all documents needed to start working, I am so happy I managed to read this book. I mean, another non-academic book. Haha is it really non-academic, Nina? I bet there are lots of medical knowledge inside it. :D

I just knew Popular (at least in AEON Klebang) does not sell Breathe by Beni Rusani. Don't really understand why this bookstore prefer this way, Doesn't the store know this is one of the best-selling books? I ended up buying it from MPH in AEON Kinta City. Funny isn't it, how Ipoh itself has three AEON malls!

Breathe by Beni Rusani | Book Review
Front cover.

: Breathe
Author: Beni Rusani
Pages: 260
Publisher: WhiteCoat Enterprise
Publication Date: April 2017


Basically, it is about Dr. Adam who is now a cardiologist working in National Heart Institute. And ironically a cardiologist suffered a heart attack while he was jogging. The book reminisces Adam's current situations and his memories back in 2003+- when he was a houseman (junior doctor who just start working)

This book also covers his love life, friendships, colleagues and a bit on family. 

Breathe by Beni Rusani | Book Review
Back cover.


A simple (yet complicated) story but a very interesting one as it is medical-related and I managed to understand most of the terms, diseases, managements mentioned in this novel. 

1. Life as a houseman.
It will be my life very soon. Just around the corner. In this novel, I can imagine how blur it will be on the very first day of working. Unsure what to do, where to go etc. But, I can observe how Dr. Adam struggled to maintain to be there, in his shoes as a houseman.

Be ready to admit that I lack clinical experiences.
Be ready to accept the fact that I need to learn hard and smart with all procedures - not on mannequins but real patients.
Improve and remember basic ideas on everything I do.

  • "Practice and practice until you bleed. It'll make you a better doctor." - Prof. Black
  • "Remember our mantra: See one. Do one. Teach one." - Mad Doc
  • "Your eye bags are not imperfections. It's a testimony to your hard work and dedication to your profession." - Prof. Black

Breathe by Beni Rusani | Book Review
Life goal.

2. Move on. 
Really. Easier said than done.

Move on in this case does not only mean letting go of failed relationship. 
But, letting go all the failure, mistakes in life.

Doctors witness death almost every single day. From medical staffs point of view, I can understand how many doctors I've met admit that they end up losing the normal reaction towards death - patients' death. I am a bit afraid to be like that as well. 

In this novel, we can appreciate how doctors actually cannot move on from their patients' deaths. Especially their very first one. T_T It basically give huge impact in their own life, even for the experienced doctors - losing patient after trying everything he can do - can be torturing. 

  • "To enter the light, you have to let go of your past."
  • "Someone I look up to once told me, horrible things could happen in medicine. Patients can die on us. We must learn from it and move on. So we can help the next patients."
  • "Forgiving others seemed easy while forgiving yourself was hard."

There are many more life lessons I can extract from this book. But, I think these two are enough for me now. :)

Pray that I will be a competent doctor.
Pretty please <3

My rating: ★★★★★

SS, Perak, Malaysia

My Experience and Tips to Raudhah, Masjid Nabawi, Madinah

January 29, 2018

What is Raudhah actually?

First of all, it is an area inside Masjid Nabawi that include tombs of Nabi Muhammad s.a.w., Saidina Abu Bakar As-Siddiq r.a. and Saidina Umar al-Khattab r.a.. There is another place that is said to be reserved for Nabi Isa a.s.

My Experience and Tips to Raudhah, Masjid Nabawi, Madinah
Kubah hijau Masjid Nabawi

Raudhah is the area that is also considered tempat mustajab doa. Most people who prayed here, they usually say that their wishes have been granted :)

Let me share my experiences so that you can isolate the points by yourselves.

As I mentioned earlier, women are allowed to enter Raudhah only after Fajr, Zuhur and Isya' prayers. Always enter Masjid Nabawi via door 25 (for women) if you attempt to enter Raudhah. There are two main gates afterwards - 1) to enter the men's prayer areas from women's prayer areas, 2) to enter Raudhah itself.

1) First attempt.

My first attempt (after Zuhur) to enter, Mak and I followed the Malay group - it is actually kumpulan berbahasa Melayu. Here, you can expect people from Malaysia, Indonesia, Singapore and Brunei. And I've been told that English speaking countries can be included here as well. I have no idea about other groups. But seems like Indians love to join this group as well T_T

My Experience and Tips to Raudhah, Masjid Nabawi, Madinah
Can you see the signboard? This was when we were waiting to pass the first gate. 

After passing the first door, Mak and I ended up separated from that Malay group and suddenly we were surrounded by lots of Indians. I suspected we accidentally get ourselves into the Indian group. No way to leave the group anyway, as there were many other people behind our backs. So, we just try our best to adapt with that situation. To be honest, Indians are very aggressive. SubhanAllah. Memang rasa kena lenyek.

It was very crowded that we couldn't even see our feet. So, we couldn't decide if we already enter Raudhah's area or not. 

How to know? 
Raudhah's floors are covered with green carpets, instead of red carpets at other areas. 

2) Second attempt.

Okay, this time, it was after Isya' and we decided to really stick to the Malay group. And guess what, it was the same situation. Even in the Malay group, there were so many other people like Africans and Indians in the group. 

When people in Malay group were allowed to enter Raudhah, there was no easy way in either. So many people who were already in Raudhah had not leave Raudhah yet. Some others who didn't plan to stay longer, they were also stuck in the crowd and unable to get themselves out of Raudhah. T_T

My Experience and Tips to Raudhah, Masjid Nabawi, Madinah
Waiting to pass the second gate. Raudhah is beyond the instructions banners that you can see. 

The challenge for me at that time was, there was another makcik following me and Mak. I felt like another responsibility was given to me as I need to take care of her in Raudhah as well. She is 75 years old, guys. She looks tired of waiting and what else kena himpit etc.

3) Third attempt.

We first sit among the Malays before passing the first door, then we joined another group (it was with the Turks at that time). Alhamdulillah, it was the smoothest than previous two. Mak and I waited patiently (walaupun kena himpit jugak) until we reached the very front line of Raudhah. It was the best zone as less people pushing us. 

My Experience and Tips to Raudhah, Masjid Nabawi, Madinah

There are few tips I would love to share.
Not just for you but for my own references in the future. 

  • Perform lots of solat hajat to pray that we will have easier entry into Raudhah.
  • Be patient, sabar sabar and sabar.
  • Exercise regularly before coming here so that we will be physically fit.
  • Stay with the Malay group first. Usually in front of the first gate will be the Turks, beside them will be us, the Malays. But still, Malay group usually become the last group to pass the first gate T_T
  • Try to enter Raudhah with a partner. You can take turn to guard each other to pray. Why? When you sujud, other people would not see you down there. The potential to be stepped on will be much higher. 
  • While walking passing the first gate, always zikrullah and selawat. We are going to visit Rasulullah s.a.w.! :D 
  • The time allocated is 5 minutes - they said. But trust me, once you are inside, the tendency to be stuck and unable to exit is high. Use that time you are stuck there wisely - either to pray multiple times, make lots of du'as. If you want to give chance to other people, try to move out slowly while keep on making du'as although it will be challenging as well. 
  • Try to calm and don't shout as this is a mosque and if Rasulullah s.a.w. can see us, he must be very sad to see the situation T_T Avoid using harsh words and be patient when you are pushed from all directions. 
  • Send our salam for Rasulullah s.a.w. and his Companions. You can always read the prayers in your guidebook. 
  • Always say in our prayers that this will not be our last chance to visit Rasulullah s.a.w. and to hope that we will be here again very soon. 
  • Still perform our prayers towards qiblah, NOT TOWARDS THE TOMBS!
  • Enter lightly. I mean, avoid taking with you lots of bags. Even, tawakal a lot to leave the shoes at the shoe racks. 
  • There are spaces to pray for people on wheelchairs. I think they have different entrance :)

There is an interesting story about Saidatina Aisyah. She was originally offered to have a tomb in Raudhah but she decided not to be there as there would be Saidina Umar r.a. (who was not her mahram). Aisyah was buried at Jannat al-Baqi' (Perkuburan Baqi') which is said that people buried here will be among the earliest to enter Jannah. :)

SS, Perak, Malaysia

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