Living a Semi-Permeable Life

February 20, 2016

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I was doing a random quiz online on 'Where Should I Travel To Next' when I encounter a question with an answer of Julia Roberts in the movie 'Eat, Pray, Love'. I watched this movie a very long time ago, when in college. And this quiz triggered me to re-watch it. 

Well, the story is basically about a woman staying in 3 places searching for 3 types of healing - via food in Italy, pray / meditation in India and being loved in Bali, Indonesia. 

As I skipped the scenes a lot, suddenly I was interested on this - Permeable Membrane; about a couple who were reciting something on a stage - about love. 

I disappear into the person I love. I am the permeable membrane. If I love you, you can have it all - my money, my time, my body, my dog, my dog's money. I will assume your debts. And I will project upon you all sorts of nifty qualities that you have never actually cultivated in yourself. I will give you all of this and more, until I get so exhausted and depleted that the only way I can recover is by becoming infatuated with someone else." - Eat, Pray, Love 2010


The word I used to hear or read many times in my studies especially in Pharmacology. Well, I'm sure you knew it from the Science subject we studied in high school right? Basically, membrane is a layer that separate two things. It can be permeable, semi permeable and non-permeable. 

Let me just explain semi-permeable as it is in between. Semi means allowing something to pass through but not the rest. Or, it can let the rest enter but with few limits. :)

I tried to get this into my heart - to evaluate the meaning. 

And I learnt that; not everything you can just let them pass through your body, your heart and your mind. I can say, I am more into trying to live as semi-permeable membrane. There are things I would not bother having it - love of Allah and my family, care from friends. knowledge etc. But, still there are other things that I'm battling within myself to avoid it - especially complicated relationship and having bad personality.

And also, I'm trying not to fully attach on someone or something where I can go astray when he / she / it leaves me. Or maybe I'm the one who need to leave them. They can be anything - friends, beloved stuffs etc. Of course, we need to take care of it. But, don't lose hope or get so frustrated or sad when we found out they are not in the original place anymore. 

While, some things may harm ourselves - drug addiction, bad attitude. Just like how blood brain barrier prevent abusive or dangerous substances getting into our brain - that is how we protect ourselves from these things. 

We are given brain to think and decide.
Choose wisely and take good care of our desire. 

Human makes mistakes, so do you and I. Leave them and start a new life with lesson learned from the mistakes.


Hradec Kralove,

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